The Promised Land
Posted on January 7, 2012
I lie awake with this pain that binds me
Wishing for a newfound story
To define my life not by pain,
But one where everything will be okay again.
I wake up in the morning full of dread
For fear of another day of pain ahead
I fight and fight, I continue this plight
But will I ever make it to the promised land?
Driving past the cliff above me
I wonder could it absolve me?
Would its cold rock suit my cold heart?
Or would it just contribute, to my life’s dark.
Working through another day,
Marked by pain, yet no gain
I feel the ever growing desire
To curl up and die, by life’s painful fire
The fires of hell itself could not hurt more
Than the desires I have being destroyed ever more
The life that keeps me also bereaves me
Of anything left to live for
Yet due to an obligation of love
A love of obligation
Obligation which saves my life
My friends, my kids, my dog, my wife
I’m still here yet my soul is dead
It couldn’t cope with the dread
Of another day asking the ultimate question
Question, question, question, question
Never answered, but always there
Why, oh why, must they be there?
Why can’t the beauty of life consume me?
Instead of this pain which will soon outdo me.
I won’t be beaten, or maybe I already have
Life, well life’s just way too hard
For me to see the light amongst this darkness
The darkness which consumes us.
But, never let it be forgotten
Even when you feel like life’s forgotten
The pain that binds us will one day die
And you, my friend, will be the apple of life’s eye.
For, unlike me brother, you never gave up
You walked tall, you kept your strut,
Your determination to succeed
Eventually enabled you, to breathe free.
Even though I did not last
I leave behind me, in my past
A trail of plight which, if followed right
Will lead you to the promised land.
I fought hard, I did not envy
Others who, all around me
Reminded me of the love I lacked
But which, I’m certain, as a matter of fact
I was deserved of.
When the pain of earth did so beat me
And my body died, as if beneath me
I made a journey and did transcend
The walls of hell I was imprisoned in.
You see, my friend, life was not for me
But the promise of something better did drive me
Beyond one life and into the next
To sit with you, with endless breath.
With endless love, we do sit
Basking in the sun which did so lit
The hope which fueled us out of the fire
And into the world we did desire.
And so it is that we sit here
Looking back at all we feared
And realising that for a reason
Life did treat us with no pleasin’.
To prepare us for the journey which lay ahead
A journey which we made, despite the pain we bled
Which led us here,
Away from the fear
To live a life eternal.
Some say everythin’ happens for a reason
Even though it feels like treason
To be cheated out of happiness,
But please try and always remember this;
When you don’t die you become stronger
Ready to take on the new world order
A pact that seeks to end all we see
Despite our wants and fantasies
Life’s a bitch, and then you die
But always remember, from you to I
That the pain does end, whether in life
Or in death.
And one day, my friend,
No matter when it ends,
You will escape the sorrow that blinds you
And you will learn the truth behind you
Everthin’ will make sense, now that’s a fact
That no matter when you make it back
To this state of being,
This glorious feeling,
I will be here, covering your back.
The promised land is a dream
The promised land is a reality
Whether in life, or in death
It will come your way.
Happiness will be yours one day
The key is simply to always remember
And in the mean time never forget
That what you give, you will get.
The love you showed in your life
To your kids, your dog, and your wife
Will have bought you something eternal and great
A ticket to the beautiful gates
Of the place which will love you forever and ever,
The Promised Land.